well dear alexandria, it appears to be your lucky day.
"Who are you?" I asked as I heard this coming from inside my own head,
I have many names, but the one that the messenger calls me is THE QUIETUS, lord of death.
All the sudden I was transported to some kind of white void where a gigantic man made out of black smoke stood before me and looked at me. Despite what I said, I was actually pretty scared and started to cry as he reached for me.
Dear, your wish...
is my command!
Is that the sweet sound of death I hear?
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
71%
A lot of people ask me if I'm suicidal. Well, if the posts before this didn't tip you off here is a newsflash, yes. In a way at least because it's not like I actively try to kill myself because I'm such a coward that I'm too fucking cowardly to even try but like if I was walking on a side walk and saw a car speeding towards me, I probably wouldn't move out of the way.
I'd be like, finally.
I'm more passively suicidal than anything.
I don't wish to die by my own hands.
I wish someone would just kill me!
I'd be like, finally.
I'm more passively suicidal than anything.
I don't wish to die by my own hands.
I wish someone would just kill me!
49%
Why do I even have a journal? Does anybody fucking read this? Why the hell do I write at all if nobody reads it, if nobody not even myself enjoys reading about some whiny goth of a teenager who doesn't care about anyone but herself and is just a selfish jerk.
I got myself subway today, it was really satisfying.
Eating gives me a moment of solidarity and peace.
I eat a lot.
I got myself subway today, it was really satisfying.
Eating gives me a moment of solidarity and peace.
I eat a lot.
33%
Today my mother yelled at me for something. I wasn't really listening what she was mad about, probably something about my school work. See, I've probably skipped more than 25% of my classes this semester, because what's the point?
I don't see the point in spending money and effort in getting through college when in 5 years, it's incredibly likely that I'll just be some loser who hangs at her parent's house living off welfare.
Why does a pathetic loser like me even try?
Why do I even try to live?
I don't see the point in spending money and effort in getting through college when in 5 years, it's incredibly likely that I'll just be some loser who hangs at her parent's house living off welfare.
Why does a pathetic loser like me even try?
Why do I even try to live?
12%
I met an old friend of mine today that I now feel no connection to. It would've been awkward if I had any real care for anything anymore. I really want to care. I wish I cared even a little about this person who I spent years of my life with almost everyday after school.
Why don't I care?
Why don't I care?
1%
Ever just wish that you could die? Just, you know it's a selfish thing and you probably don't want to experience death but what if you could just go to sleep and not wake up. It would be such a release from the burden of life.
I wish to die.
Everyday.
I just don't want this anymore.
I wish to die.
Everyday.
I just don't want this anymore.
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